Stop bothering...

i always think im sensitive enough to understand the situation... but sometimes not.. it gives a wrong impact afterall..
i'll stop bother things that i think i shouldnt bother.. but yet.. it's bothered me..
confusing with myself..is such a pathetic way of life...
well im still learning.. learn from the lessons.. and i will never forget this lesson easily..
You Know What???... i Hope u don't.... cause u never ever know....

~~==~~

few years staying at a same apartment but every year different blocks and levels.
A4--->D9--->D3--->A8
i'hd been shifting the house every year, and each time the rubbish i throw can be a small rubbish mount for rats...yeah..rats... imagine the size..
well.. eventhough there is a lot to throw...to dump...to leave.. but the memories about those rubbish just wont begone from my head... sweet or bad memories, i dun want to judge it casue i dunno how....simple..and now it became the roots in my life.. in other way of saying was "if not them,there's no me today"

im growing.. like a tree.. each time i grab the soil from the earth.. it cost me a lot of things.. and its tired.. but no one could have the experience i gained... no matter in what sort of matter.. study..family..love....

Well love is the most hardest thing ever to figure and understand.. i wish there is something to deal with this matter..can i just sell my love out.. or free of charge its okay..or maybe i pay u to have it... cause i dun really need it since it is so suffering... but now.. i think it was a mistake that i shouldn't made.. i shouldn't just left my love behind, dumped to anybody... i should..KEEP IT...save it.....lock it....

Untill there is someone who knows to unlock it.....
Tsaaaaaaaa~~~~~ You Know Who??? no u don't...==

Big Sweat!!!!

Well..It's been a long time i never get so nervous like this before.
I first knew him was from a friend
my first time saw him was in the studio and he was carrying a box
First word i say to him was.. "Hey!" when im on the way back home
and the second word.."Hye!".. when i met him in a restaurant
but the first hey was the first time i look into his eye but just only 2 seconds
we chat on messenger, but never chat in real
but one day he asked me on msn " you're into bears aren't you?"
thats the first time i get shock by him.. well i not sure is he "people like us" or he just a smart guy, too smart to know things he wouldn't know?
i was sweating while replying his message
and his answers was confusing, but honestly..
i was hoping the answer is "yea, i am"
yes its kind of selfish just wanted him to say that..
that's what im thinking when i start to like somebody
and im a coward too, cause im afraid he'll stop talking to me......
fairy tale....love story...whatever....i don't really believe it will falls on me, but i do believe it will happen on somebody who deserve it...
tshaaaaaa~~~~ You Know What.. no, u don't...==

不要了~

既然把东西给了人，那就不属于自己的了
何必还要去想它呢？
不过东西是被人取而不问的，而且东西还拿不回，那么那东西还是属于自己的吗？
这他妈的哪儿会不去想呢？？diu~
倒不如，不要了。。。

Awakened....

已经好多个月都没下笔了，中文用词都要快生锈了，词穷词穷。。

就刚结束了final presentation，好像是。。“好像”是轻松了。
不过似乎觉得才刚暖身而已，这应该是件好事吧。
终于在在自己的生活里找到了目标，我真的不晓得之前的我是在干嘛。。
难听的说是在浪费时间，比较好听的是在给自己投资，寻找目标。
现在，找到了。。。感到非常的安慰，不会太高兴，因为还有很多很多的挑战，不过至少我终于开始了。

开始了？

呃~才刚开始而已，就要掉头走人了啊？

这一段话最近都在我的脑里重复又在重复的。



凡是都是不难的，只看当事人怎样去解决他，她，它，祂，牠的。

命运？

我实在是太空闲了，在几个星期前，到了一家水晶店，里头有一位上了年纪的先生或小姐的，他们都是在帮人看八字。 自己对八字向来是有些许的兴趣，所以当天的前几天就和他们订了位置，说“我要看八字！”。。。

是一位稍微有年纪阿姨，和他说了将近两个小时的。不问到底就心里不爽的，问了开始就有新的问题。其实说实在的，这些问题都是可以解决的，因为我已经知道什么事情将要来临，有什么办法可以化解，但话说回来，这不就是所谓的“命中注定”吗？这里命中注定的意思是，我已经知道命运是怎么安排，可是我也已经知道命运要怎样去化解，这跟在考试之前知道了考卷的答案岂不是一样？

心里有数，是这个意思吧。还是胸有成竹的，算了~。。
现在的问题不是在于利不利用这些答案顺利地回答这一份考卷，因为这是我自己本身想要的，可是重要的问题是，怎样才能把答案顺利的写上考卷纸？

还是顺其自然，当作这一切只是一个…话。。。。